| Topic 310 - Don't understand someone? |
[26 Nov 2009|06:20am] |
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What do you do when you don't understand someone? If they're evil bloodthirsty monsters... I kill 'em. That's what I do when I don't understand 'em. If they're not evil... just some stupid wanker... then I just beat 'em up. And it goes without sayin, if I don't like someone, I bite 'em. Or just bitch-slap some sense into the git.
If is a friend I don't understand. Be it tryin' to destroy the world... or hookin' up with someone totally wrong for 'em. No matter what crazy crap they do, I just ignore it and try to be supportive. I'm very tolerant that way.
Now, if it's a certain someone of the fairer sex that I don't understand. Then is usually much angst and sexual tension. Followed by havin' a passionate love affair that leaves both parties completely satisfied. Yet confused about where things should go. Then comes pain, heartache, and death. Goin' to hell. Gettin' better. Dyin' again. Gettin' better again. Comin' back to find she's moved on. Much gettin' drunk. After years of doin' our own thing. Finally reconnectin'... Rekindlin' the love affair. Findin' some happiness again. Only for a sucky fate to come along and muck it all up once more.
Anyhow, I pretty much haven't understood any bird I've ever known. Their all bloody impossible t' understand. Dru was straight-up insane asylum insane. So she had a good excuse for not makin' any sense. The others while not crazy per-se. Well okay, Buffy gone all crazy once. Thought everyone was just figments of her perverse imagination. Course that was more a demon induced lunacy, so don't think it counts. And Fred was nutters due to bein' trapped in a soddin' hell dimension for five years. But thankfully she got better too. Girl wasn't so much with the crazy when she befriended me. Even after just a short time, do think I understood her better than any bird I'd ever known or loved.
Truth be told, do think I'm pretty good at understandin' people. I got good people skills. Better than most anyway. My main problem isn't understandin' others. Is more havin' the blighters understand me. No matter what I do, it usually gets twisted around as somethin' bad or wrong. So I don't need to worry 'bout understandin' others. I accept people as they are. Accept things as they are. No matter how much the world changes, people stay the same. Times change. Traditions change. Life changes. Tryin' to understand the changes, and goin' with the flow is what it comes down to in the end. For if one isn't able to change with the times, then they will never understand a bloody person, or thing that's goin' on in the world.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) theatrical_muse: Topic #310
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
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| Topic 306 - Point |
[29 Oct 2009|05:10pm] |
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How far would you be willing to go to make a point.
I could make a point with my fangs. Get it. Vampire. Fangs. Pointy. Uh, sorry. But that pun never gets old.
I'm the type of bloke that is very set in his ways. I don't change my positions with the times. I don't change my point of view. I'm stubborn. I'm headstrong. I'm unwillin' to give up on what I believe in. I know I'm right. I know most everyone else is wrong. Most people are clueless fools. Don't know what they want. Don't have a clue about what's really goin' on in the world. And damn sure don't care 'bout makin' things better.
So anyway, how far will I bleedin' go to make a point. Unlike most who are all talk and no action. I gave my very life for what I believe in. Think that proved I'd do whatever it takes to save the bloody world. Whatever it soddin' takes to ensure the girl I loved didn't have to pay that ultimate sacrifice again. So like that song says. I'd do anything for love. But I won't do that. I would do that and a whole lot more. To prove a point...to stand for what's right...to protect the ones I love. Come hell or high water. No matter the consequences. I will always do whatever needs done.
theatrical_muse: Topic #306
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 238
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| Topic 302 - Answer a question that you're never asked. |
[08 Oct 2009|07:15am] |
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Answer a question that you're never asked.
What do I never get asked? Hmm, let me see. Even though you'd think someone would be curious 'bout Mr. Awesome Vampire With A Soul. Think they'd ask a ton of questions. I actually don't get asked that many questions. Least none that are of a personal sort. So let me make a short list. Then I can decide which one I'll answer. I'll answer several of 'em, or none at all. Depends on what strikes my fancy.
There is one specific question that gets under my skin. Annoys me muchly. The fact that nobody ever asks what my real name is. That does bug me some. But seein' that my human name is personal information known only to yours truly and the Powers That Be. I'm not gonna answer that question anytime soon. And its so not cause I have some lame human name. My name is totally cool, and is in no way nerdy or geeky. Honest. So why not answer the question then? Well, it would take away from the mystery of who I am. Plus with an awesomely cool name like Spike. Don't bleedin' need a last name, now do I.
What's another question that I'm never asked. Think I'll lighten the mood by goin' with somethin' more upliftin'. Least it's upliftin' to me. Why am I so incredibly good lookin' and athletic? Course, isn't it enough that I'm the hottest male to ever exist. Yes, I'd say so. So on further consideration, no bloody answer needed for that question either.
Here's a question you'd think I'd get all the time. But surprisingly nobody asks. Not that I get upset about such things. Yet you'd think someone would at least ask on occassion, or be curious and wanna know. What's your birthday? How old are you? Would you like to celebrate your birthday? Would you like to have a soddin' birthday gift. But no, nobody ever cared enough to ask.
Whatever. Doesn't much matter anyway. Given that I'm a Vampire. Been dead a couple times. Been a ghost for six months. Stuck in soddin' hell where time works differently for several more months. You could kinda say that it's hard to give an exact date on how old I am. Just goin' with I first became a creature of the night in 1880 is a good enough answer for most. Though a birthday gift for old Spike wouldn't be somethin' I'd object too. Uh, right...anyhow...movin' on.
Do you ever wanna get married? Nobody's ever asked me that. In all my years as a human... and a century plus more as a Vampire. I've never been asked the marriage question. Didn't ever find that one special someone when I was alive. So the point was moot as an awkward, shy, bookworm type who focused too much on higher learnin' and not enough on findin' a romantic partner to share ones life. And marriage isn't somethin' big bad demons really get into either. Well, cept for that one time when me and Buffy was under a love spell. But not sure if that counts. Cause technically I was never asked. I just found myself engaged. Did save all the datin' and courtship crap. So wasn't all bad. My demon basically feels that if one could just skip all the borin' junk. Skip straight to the honeymoon and hours of mindblowin' sex. Then marriage would be okay. Not that we can't just do the hours of sex without gettin' married. Is actually allot simpler to just be friends with benefits. But I digress. Maybe we'd get married if it wasn't made too complicated and head achy. But again, it also goes without sayin' that the future Miss Spike has to be an incredible lover. Able to take all I got to give. Sadly, don't think there is many a girl that can handle the Big Spike Express.
Anyway, seein' how I'm immortal and all. Gettin' hitched would mean allot more than it does to some short life expectancy loser that only has to be tied to the old ball and chain for a few decades. If lucky, only a few years. As someone that can't die, the thought of an eternity with just one girl does scare me a bit. Hearin' the same naggy voice day in and day out forever would require a great deal of sacrifice and unconditional love. Not that Buffy's voice is annoyin'. Who am I kidding. Her voice is suicide inducing. Further proof that I truly love her. Cause God knows a bloke would have to love her unconditionally in order t' put up with her constant talking and talking and more talking...
Not that I wouldn't be able to commit to the one I love. Bloody well had a several lifetime commitment to Dru. We spent over 117 years together. Both bad and good, all in all, we had allot of crazy times. And from the first night to the very last moment. I was always faithful and true to her. Just like I've been committed to everyone I've loved over my long existence. So yeah, if the right girl came along. Someone that actually loved me as much as I loved her. Well then marriage would be on the table.
Well do think that more than answers this bloody topic several times over. Bloody thing has put me in a right depressin' mood. So if you excuse me... think I need a drink... or several drinks. One could ask? Why do I drink so much? That could be another question someone could ask. If they actually gave a damn. But that's not really a subject I feel like gettin' into at the moment. So think I'll save that somber topic for another day.
theatrical_muse: Topic # 302
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 978
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| Madness? |
[17 Sep 2009|08:45am] |
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Madness?
Guess one could bloody say that I'm a bleedin' expert on madness. Over the course of my long existence, I've experienced it over and over again. For all I know. There may be a strain of madness that runs in my Vampire family bloodline. Me, my sire, and grand-sire have all been crazy as all hell at one point or another. Poor Drusilla is pretty much crazy all the time. I spent a hundred plus years carin' for Dru. Maybe a bit of her madness rubbed off on me. Tried my best to provide for her every need. But nothin' I done was ever enough. As passionate and insane as our love for one another was. She loved soddin' Angelus more. Didn't matter how much pain he caused her. Bein' the one that drove her mad. The one that made her forever broken. He was her sire. And that deep bond forged in a moment of mutual madness can never be severed.
So right, my vampiric family is made up of those prone to periods of depression, suicidal tendencies, and madness. Not that my vamp family are the only ones with those issues. Seems most of those I've known or loved have been bloody screwed up psychologically. Take the Slayer for example. Buffy's gone crazy a few times. Even thought everyone was just figments of her overactive imagination once. Or take my only wicca friend. Willow. Around the same time I gone nutters. Red gone psycho too. She tried to destroy the world. Madness from lossin' the girl that she loved most. Love can truly drive some insane. Lucky most never love so deeply or lose so much. Nor have the power to actually do any real damage if they do go mad.
Some act out self-destructively when they go crazy. Others close off and withdraw into a world of their own making. Take one of my closest human friends. Fred was stuck in a hell dimension for years. That experience drove her into crazy land. Left her afraid to face the outside world. Afraid to do anythin' but hide. Luckily Angel and his crew saved her. Helped her regain her sanity. So she was very much the least crazy person I knew by the time we first met.
Your note that I haven't really got into my own trips into crazy town. When I got my soul back. Just like Angel. The guilt and painful memories that came along with it's return. My soul drove me over the edge. Didn't help that the soddin' First Evil took advantage of my vulnerable state. Tried to drive me even more crazy. But I was too headstrong to give into any of the mind games. I wasn't gonna be nobody's puppet. Damn sure wasn't gonna hurt the girl I love. Or hurt her loved ones. She needed me sane. So I quickly came to my senses, and got back on the right track. Just like she, and my other friends have as well. I faced my personal demons and came out the stronger for it.
Can't much say what the future holds for me, or the ones I love. But do hope that any of the craziness and madness of yester year is nothin' but history. Dead and buried where such bad things belong.
theatrical_muse: Topic #299
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 565
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[03 Sep 2009|12:00pm] |
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"Mediocrity knows nothing higher than itself, but talent instantly recognizes genius."
-Sir Arthur Conan Doyle, The Valley of Fear
Nobody ever recognizes my genius. Wonder what that says 'bout the ones I'm surrounded by. Maybe they need glasses. Or a good slap upside their thick skulls. To blind to see my greatness... is what they are. Save the bloody world a dozen times over. Not a single thank you. Not a great job Spike. Not a your the most wonderful hero to ever live. Unlive. Sometimes I feel like the bloody Rodney Dangerfield of heroes. No respect. No respect at all.
Course I've never been one t' give a sod 'bout what others think. Can't expect others to give respect. Gotta stand up and demand it. Never show weakness. Never let my guard down. Keep my eyes on the prize. Be the best I can be.
I strive to be the best at everythin' I do. Mediocrity isn't even in my vocabulary. Bein' the top of the line, leader of the pack, most successful and respected of all... is what it's all 'bout.
And that's 'bout all I gotta say on this bleedin' subject.
theatrical_muse: Topic #296
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 204
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| Topic 294 - Passing |
[06 Aug 2009|05:10pm] |
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Passing. I was passin' someone on the street and I noticed they was cryin'... no wait, already answered that bloody topic.
Anyway, bein' an immortal vampire and all. I've been around in one form or another since the mid-1800's. So I know quite a bit about things only lastin' for a short time. I've seen the rise of nations. And in short order, the downfall of empires. I've seen the death of many famous people... many leaders. All tried to make their mark on the world. But no matter the differences, they had one thing in common. They was only human. And like all humans, they come and go after only a brief time to shine in the sun.
The passin' of days, months, years, decades... it all bleeds together... nothin' but distant memories now. Over a century and a half, I've seen so much. Lost so much. No matter how hard I've tried. I haven't been able to hold onto anythin'. It all passes away.
Everythin' passes. Nothin' lasts. 'Cept for me.
Bloody hell. I don't like thinkin' about the soddin' past. Or 'bout things passin' on. Lost loves. Lost friends. It all hurts too much. Think I much prefer t' pass my time at a bar with a good drink. Several good drinks, actually. Passin' the time that way, doesn't hurt so much.
theatrical_muse: Topic#294
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 235
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| Topic 290 - Cryin' Stranger |
[09 Jul 2009|02:00am] |
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You pass a complete stranger on the street and notice they are crying. What do you do?
It depends. Depends on what you might ask? Depends if their male or female? Or how bloody old they are? Just to name a couple questions. Like if their a bloke, I'd probably just keep on a walkin'. Cause a man just isn't supposed to cry... 'specially in a public place. Men are supposed to have a stiff upper lip. Take whatever crap happens to 'em. Keep their emotions all bottled up. Just accept that life sucks and die years early from all the pent up frustration and stress. So I'd usually walk on by, unless I'm in a whinny mood, and tell them a real sob story about my craptastic life. My misfortune would probably cheer 'em up. Certainly has many a person over the years. And damn well shows that some people have allot more to cry about, so things can always be worse.
Now if it's a girl doin' the cryin'. Then it depends on her age. And how attractive she is. Yet I really can't stand to hear girls cry. 'Specially some foolish bent cryin' over breakin' up with her boyfriend. Or some other little thing that gets turned into an end of the world Drama Queen event. In most cases, don't much think the bird would wanna be comforted by someone of the opposite sex. Though given how cool I am, most girls don't seem t' mind bein' comforted by yours truly. Granted in the old days, I'd take advantage of such vulnerablity. For lettin' ones guard down in public is never a good idea. And even worse when done around strangers that might not have the best of intentions.
To make a long story shorter. In conclusion, given my many years of experence. I can say that I've never seen many tearful people on the streets. Thankfully most are smart enough to keep their cryin' behind closed doors. 'Cept for those bout ready to jump off a buildin' or bridge. But that's a different question on what to do when seein' someone all sucidal. Fact is most people cryin' don't need to be helped by a total stranger. They need time to themself. For most people in a depressed state don't like to be bugged by strangers. So am pretty sure someone who's all down and sad about one thing or another doesn't wanna be annoyed by some total stranger stickin' their nose into their personal affairs. So even if you think your helpin' or givin' some moral support. Such things are best left to their friends and family. If they don't got any, that might be a good reason for them to be cryin'. But most people are not alone in the world. So leave strangers alone, and focus on your own relationship issues. When ones friends or family is cryin'... you should be there for them... give 'em the love and support they need. If they get the attention and support they need. Then they won't be on a cold lonely street needin' some soddin' stranger to show kindness, ignore their sufferin', or worst case take advantage of such a vulnerable condition.
theatrical_muse: Topic #290
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 547
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| Topic 286 - break the law? |
[18 Jun 2009|02:15am] |
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Under what circumstances, if any, is it okay to break the law?
I'm not one to cast stones. I'm not gonna tell someone what they can or cannot do. Despite my occasional good deeds. I'm not a Saint by a long shot. Matter of fact, my track record isn't a very good one. I haven't always done the best at makin' the right decisions. Sometimes I've taken shortcuts, and many a time I've done whatever the hell I wanted. Laws be damned. The old sayin' - if it feels good do it - is a mantra most demons lived by.
Yet I'm not very proud of many the things I've done. So do try t' be a law abidin' - save cute little kittens and puppies - kinda hero... most of the time. However, that's easier said than done. Cause I pretty much have to break the law due to my unique circumstances. As an immortal Vampire... a supernatural creature outside and beyond the laws of the mortal world. No matter how hard I try not to break laws. There's so damn many of 'em, it's hard not to end up breakin' a few. I can't just be an average joe. For example, I don't look like I'm over 150... and many a block would find it hard to understand my less than perfect background... so to avoid the drama... I gotta lie about some things... like my age, and use a fake birth certificate and drivers license. Gotta do what it takes to fit into society, even if that means breakin' some bloody rules and regulations along the way.
Bein' a creature of the night. And havin' a not so law abidin' demon in me. Could say, if it works to your advantage to do so, then its okay to break the law. But I'm not a bad guy anymore. And kiddies might be readin' this. So will just say that breakin' the law is wrong... and cheaters never win. One should try to walk the straight and narrow. Follow their conscience. Listen to that little voice in their head that warns 'em not to do somethin' stupid. Cause no matter how cool and excitin' it can be to break laws. There is usually consequences for wrong doin'. And most of the time the consequences aren't good.
theatrical_muse: Topic # 286
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 393
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| Topic 283 - What languages do you speak? |
[28 May 2009|05:59pm] |
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What languages do you speak?
I've been around a very very long time. And am smarter than some blokes think. Thanks to my mum, I got a good proper British education. And though I wasn't much interested in learnin' other languages. After all, learnin' such things is borin' as all hell. I did manage to pick up bits and pieces of various languages.
The language I use the most, and prefer above all others, is good old Queen's English. I'm British, and so is a given I'd speak like a British gentlemen. Mostly.
However, I'm not as knowledgeable as old Angel, who has a soddin' photographic memory, so can easily remember various languages. But besides speakin' good English. Least good enough for all the birds that like the way I speak. They melt when I say 'luv."
Besides English, I also know a bit of French, German, Spanish, even picked up some Chinese along the way. Not when I actually needed it durin' the damn Boxer Rebellion, but whatever. Likewise I know a few demon languages, like Fyarl, which sadly only comes in handy when someone like poor old Rupert stupidly gets turned into one, so needed my help to save him. Bein' the wonderful hero I am, I helped him out and saved the day.
Course bein' in America, where most aren't good at learnin' other languages, so expects everyone to learn to speak like 'em. I am a bit rusty at most languages. And truth be told, am better at readin' foreign languages, than speakin' them. Most languages usually are spoken too bloody fast to even catch half what their tryin' to say. For cryin' out loud, one really should try to speak allot slower when chattin' with those unfamiliar with a culture and language.
Anyway, whatever. Regardless of how many language I know. Sometimes its the best to pretend like I can't understand what someone is tryin' to say. Cause it annoys the person, which is always fun. But likewise, is usually wise to fool ones enemies into thinkin' your not as smart as you really are. Bein' underestimated always works to my advantage, and has helped me survive a really long time.
theatrical_muse: Topic # 283
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 376
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| Topic 280 - What do you think? |
[30 Apr 2009|04:15pm] |
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What do you think?
Given all the emotional baggage I have from losin' way too many friends and loved ones. Most of what I think about is the past. And the past isn't much fun to think about. It's a bit too gloomy and depressin' for my likin'.
I know it's not bloody helpful in the least. I know that nothin' good can come from thinkin' about all the bad crap that's happened. Yet I'm pessimistic by nature. Bein' an undead creature of the night will have that effect on a fella. Likewise, the whole losin' the love of my life - one too many times doesn't help either. So guess I'm doomed to forever think about the darker side of things.
But on the bright side. Do think I have some good things goin' for me. I'm immortal. I'm the hottest vampire ever. I'm way cooler than Dracula. And most important of all, win or lose, I'm a survivor. So do think that no matter what crap happens. I'll not only survive it, but will come out all the stronger.
theatrical_muse: Topic #280
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 202
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| Topic 276 - On siblings or lack thereof. |
[02 Apr 2009|07:00am] |
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"Are you an only child? Write about your siblings or lack thereof."
As a human I was an only child. Born durin' the 1850's in jolly old England. My mum loved me dearly, and though lacking in other family, we had each other. We loved each other completely. Rather I would've liked havin' brothers or sisters, doesn't much matter. They'd be dead or cursed just like me. So probably for the best I was an only child. Regardless, it's all ancient history now. All that matters is that I had a mum that love me unconditionally. A boy really couldn't ask for more than that.
And that pretty much answers the bloody question. 'Cept for the fact I haven't been human in a very long time. I've been a vampire since 1880. Not countin' the six months I was a ghost... or the time I was stuck in hell for a bit. Anyhow, in terms of my insane vampire family tree. Anyone sired by my sire, the beautiful Drusilla, would ergo be considered one of my vampiric siblings. Course I'm not sure of how many poor sods my Dru has actually sired over the centuries. Some girl I brought her in Sunnydale was the last I recall. However, like most of those I've sired over the years, includin' way too many to count in Sunnyhell. Thanks to the slayers, most have a bad habit of gettin' dusted. And unfortunately are not as lucky as me, Angel, or Darla in comin' back over and over again.
I so don't wanna get into how confusin' my vamp family tree has become over the last several years. It gets a bit hard to follow, when I found out Wolfram and Hart had Dru re-sire Darla. For those who are confused about my bloodline. The Master sired Darla. Darla sired Angel. Angel sired Dru. Dru sired me. So that means Darla is my great-grandsire, and sister. Not sure what that makes Angel. Could say somethin' insulting, but am tryin' to be nicer. So will keep any snark to myself.
Anyway do think I'm Dru's favorite, so doesn't matter one way or another how many other demon relations I have. That and I'm not good at given gifts or rememberin' birthdays. Plus got enough soddin' worries over my trouble magnet human friends and their loved ones. So even if I do know of any other siblings, I'll just pretend like I don't.
theatrical_muse: Topic # 276
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 435
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| Topic 272 - Pets |
[05 Mar 2009|08:45am] |
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Do you have any pets? Would you like some (more)? Why / why not?
Now this is a topic I can sink my teeth into. Get it. Vampire. Teeth. Drinkin' blood. Uh sorry, just a bit of vampire humor. People don't much like thinkin' about what vampires eat to survive. Not the most warm or cuddly conversational topic at all. Anyway, no - I don't have any bleedin' pets. Unless a telepathic talkin' floats in air fish counts. But think he's more a mate, than a pet.
Truth is, I've never had much luck with animals. Even though I'm a very thoughtful, huggable, and lovable bloke. Even with my soul, and sensitive nature. Animals and demons just don't get along very well. Plus they have a bad habit of dyin' on me. Course that was more Dru's fault. She was never very good at carin' for her puppies... or kittens... or birds. Shinny trinkets turned out to be far better gifts.
So far as I'm concerned. Pets are for people, not bloody creatures of the night. Though if someone wants to toss a stray kitty my way. I wouldn't object. I can always use a few kittens. Cause I haven't had a good game of kitten poker in ages. Uh, I mean, nevermind.
Anyhow, to yours truly, pet is an affectionate term of endearment. Like luv, sweetheart, or cuddle bunny. So think I'll just leave the pets to my friends, and settle for just callin' my beautiful love interests pet.
theatrical_muse: Topic # 272
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 269
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| Topic 268 - The End. |
[05 Feb 2009|03:30pm] |
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The End.
I don't like thinkin' about the end. Least not the way bloody things ended between me and my girl. Or how things ended for me and my other girl. Or how things ended for yours truly and yet another girl I loved and lost before anythin' even had the chance t' start.
The more I think about it... the more I realize that I've loved and lost way too much. But I'm not gonna be all down and depressed about bein' unlucky in life and love. And damn sure ain't gonna cry about how things always seem to have a bad endin' for me. Cause cryin' and complainin' doesn't change anythin'. There is always tomorrow. Long as I'm still kickin'... and long as hope remains... no matter how bleak or bad things get... a bloke just gotta dust himself off... get back in the game.
No matter how hard it may be. No matter how sucky things ended last time... or the time before that... or that... I'm gonna try to put the soddin' past behind me. And look forward to the start of a new beginnin'.
theatrical_muse: Topic # 268
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 206
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| Topic 264 - The past is never dead. |
[07 Jan 2009|11:15pm] |
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"The past is never dead. It's not even past." William Faulkner, Requiem for a Nun.
Long as I exist, the past will never be dead. I will carry it with me - forever.
( Read more... )
theatrical_muse: Topic #264
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 399
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| Topic 260 - Five minutes |
[11 Dec 2008|08:00am] |
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Five minutes in the life of your muse.
The place was Los Angeles. A small apartment with a cheap sofa from IKEA, and an even cheaper tv from a pawn shop. Nothin' much of value, but good enough for Spike. He didn't need much, and didn't much care for all the fancy frivolities others wasted their hard earned money.
It was only two weeks away from Christmas. That oh so depressin' time of year for those without the ones they love most.
One of the unlucky few vampires with a soul - Spike was feelin' very depressed and lonely. He had no money to buy gifts for any of his friends. And felt like he had nothin' of value to give. So was just layin' low. Tryin' to stay out of everyones hair, and at least not mess up anyones holidays by annoyin' them with his unwanted presence.
The sunrise was still hours away. But he could feel it comin' and knew it would bring yet another beautiful day to the City of Angels. Another day he'd have to walk in the shadows. Alone.
Spike wasn't really tired, which was strange, given he hadn't slept in a couple of days. Yet he didn't need much sleep. And found it far too easy to get caught up in watchin' the telly, so lost track of time.
He checked his coat pocket and found that he only had a few cigarettes left. He'd have to run out to buy another pack sooner or later. But was feelin' too down in the dumps to go out. He just wasn't in a very chipper or jolly holiday mood. So was content with just stayin' at his old lonely apartment. Alone.
The crap commercials seem to go on forever. But was only five minutes at most. Maybe he'd feel in a more Christmas-y spirit later. It was still weeks away. For now he was satisfied with watchin' tv. Watchin' others problems and tryin' not to bemoan the fact, he'd no doubt be spendin' yet another Christmas alone.
theatrical_muse: Topic # 260
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 362
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| Topic 256 - What do you hope for? |
[13 Nov 2008|05:00pm] |
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What do you hope for?
Could say I bloody hope to live happily ever after. Hope to get married. Have a family and friends. Live a normal and peaceful life. Short of that, winnin' the lottery or havin' a good shag with a certain hot Slayer doesn't sound half bad. But given who I am, and given my dark and hellish past. I'd say I'm more likely to be struck by lightning or dusted. Yet knock on wood, do gotta say I hope I don't get struck by lightning, don't get dusted, or don't go to hell... again.
Anyway, what I soddin' hope for, and what I expect are two very different things. I've been around too damn long to hope for anything good. That and the fact I'm a Vampire pretty much guarantees that no amount of hopin' will change the cold hard truth. I'm gonna be a creature of the night til I get dusted. Vamps don't get the fairy tale endings. Not most anyway. And given my families track record, eternal sufferin' and much misery is par for the course.
Bloody hell, I hate writin' about crap I have no power to change. I just do my best, which usually isn't good enough. But is my best. Usually.
Do guess what I hope for, besides the cheesy happily ever after with ticker tape parade, is that no matter whatever badness happens next. I hope that I continue to be the most awesome hero ever. No matter how much things change over time. The world will always need a bloke as awesome as me to brighten things up, and make things better.
theatrical_muse: Topic #256
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 295
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| Topic 252 - Innuendo |
[16 Oct 2008|11:55pm] |
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Innuendo
Is it really innuendo if it's true. Like sayin' Bigger is Better. Everybody knows that fact. And thankfully so, cause I'd have been dusted long ago if I didn't have the manly attributes to satisfy the ladies.
So yeah, guess I use innuendo a bit more than most. Granted only a few are masterful enough to pull off some innuendo's. In truth, givin' my incredible good looks and even more incredible charm. I can pretty much say anythin' and the girls will melt. I don't need pick up lines. Don't need any soddin' innuendo. I'm all romance, and all man. And that's usually too much for most birds. So the truth is, all I gotta say is 'Hello, luv' or gaze at a babe with my big blue piercing eyes, and that's enough to turn most on. Plus girls really dig the British accent. Everythin' really is cooler when you toss in some British slang. Bleedin', bloody, bullocks, sod, blah, blah, blah. Think you get the point I'm makin', if not then your not good at innuendo or insinuations.
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theatrical_muse: Topic #252
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 300
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| Topic 248 - Good Spy |
[18 Sep 2008|07:15pm] |
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Would you make a good spy? Why or why not?
Yes, I'd say the same things that make me a great detective. Bein' a good hunter, and tracker that can find anyone. Those same qualities and special talents I have would make me a bloody good spy. I'm good at bein' all stealthy and shadow-y. And for everyone's information, I totally let Buffy, Angel, Illyria and several others easily track me down in the past cause I wanted them to find me. If I don't want somebody to see me, they won't.
In terms of the spy crap. I'm not really a good team player. I don't play well with others. So any spyin' I done would be solely for my own personal use. I'd never get into any lame secret organizations or groups. Like the soddin' Initiative or the not so good folks at Wolfram & Hart. Those buggers sucked at bein' good spy's. You could see them comin' a mile away. And the idiots couldn't keep a secret if their lives depended on it. And since most of 'em are dead now, that speaks to how much they sucked.
So do gotta say I'd make a good spy cause I'm the best at everything I do. For the right amount of money I'd do pretty much anythin' and I'd most important find out whatever you wanna know. Do it fast, and do it without anyone knowin' what hit their sorry asses. It likewise doesn't hurt that I can survive pretty much anythin'. And I don't need to breath. Not sure that has anythin' to do with bein' a good spy, but the ladies certainly takes satisfaction from that nice ability. And a good spy needs to be a good lover, so I'm good to go on that count as well.
Anyway, back on topic. Yes, I'd make a good spy. If you think otherwise, then you underestimate me at your own risk.
theatrical_muse: Topic #248
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 352
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| Topic 244 - Happy Endings |
[21 Aug 2008|07:15pm] |
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"That's something I think is growing on me as I get older: happy endings."
Alice Munro
I don't think a bloody happy endin' is in the cards for me. Like most of those I know. I've died a few times. Death was never the end. And damn sure wasn't a very happy fun time in paradise with beautiful angels.
So given my long, far too dark, and way too complicated history. Really don't think it matters how much good I do... or how many times I save the soddin' world. Sacrificin' ones life for the greater good doesn't guarantee a just reward or eternal bliss. Bein' all heroic doesn't mean a bleedin' thing. Good old me just ain't cut out for the happily ever afters. And maybe thats not a bad thing. Happy endings are very much over-rated. Goodness knows the world needs me. So I'll do my part. Save all those hot damsels in distress. Fight the good fight. All that rot.
Anyhow, right. I am long since over givin' a crap about happy endings for myself. Do hope Buffy and 'er friends get one though. Uh, anyway, just give me some Jack Daniels and I'm good to go.
And in closin' - one of my favorite sayings is a good one to live by. Que Sera Sera Whatever Will Be, Will Be.
theatrical_muse: Topic # 244
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 244
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| Topic 240 |
[23 Jul 2008|11:55pm] |
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Discuss an individual who has scared you.
I ain't gonna discuss bein' bloody scared of anyone. Cause I don't get scared. It'll be like askin' James Dean if he got scared. Or the Fonz if he got scared. It's soddin' stupid. They don't get scared. Cool tough guys don't sweat the bad stuff. And most certainly don't get afraid of anyone or anything livin' or dead. I've been tortured half to death by a half-crazed demigod. I've endured the demon trials to get my soul back. Been brutally tortured and again almost killed by a crazy Slayer. Yet I was never scared of anything. Couldn't much be a hero... save the bleedin' world... be there for my mates when the chips are down, if I allowed myself t' ever get scared, now could I. Really can't admit how scared I was about Buffy dyin'... or that our relationship was so crazy, and scary, but a good scary, if that makes any sense.
So yeah, I've looked death in the face and laughed. I've kicked the door to hell open, stomped the toughest demons of hell from one end to the other, and done it all with the heart of lion.
Don't get me wrong. Blokes have tried to scare me. Back in the old soulless days, Angelus tried to intimidate me into doin' whatever he wanted. But I wasn't a door mat for 'em or anyone. More recent like, an evil ghosty tried to scare me. Pavayne found out the hard way, others may give up and allow themselves to be victims... but I don't roll over. I damn sure don't let any sod push me around. Some might be afraid of Dracula for example... but not me. Even at my worst, I still bested the blighter without breakin' a sweat.
So in closin'... I'm too awesome to ever be afraid of an army of Slayers, the demons of hell, the damn Immortal, Godzilla, He-man, Incredible Hulk... everybody and their bloody cousin that thinks their big and bad. Anyone comes up against old Spike, they quickly discover I'm the baddest of the bad. I'm not afraid of no one. Matter of fact, most are afraid of me.
theatrical_muse: Topic # 240
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 384
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